The effort being worth the squeeze.
I make around 180 decisions a day to keep healthy. Even using my “hybrid-loop”, I cannot leave it to just keep things ticking over because they tend to run me high and that causes me physical pain, or over corrects when I dip low mid-afternoon..
Quality of life is a key aspect most people don’t have to question: if I do x, the consquences are y – pschylogically that may cause issues, but very few decisions cause physical pain.
My condition does not forgive that easily, more so now than when I was younger – my body has figured the way to get what it needs, and that’s by shouting very loud. It shouts loudest at the edges of normal range, muting as things get further out.
Run higher than it hurts, then?
No, thanks, that leads to other issues! Including long term pain from neuropathy. So, I would rather have a little pain to avoid that. More than 80% of the time, my body is is normal range, actually most of the time it’s above 90%.
At 51, life is not pain-free, but compared to many diabetics my age, my duration, I am in amazing shape, sitting by a warm fire in a beautiful house I own – I earnt the money that paid for this sanctuary. I have no debts.
Christmas lights are glittering, baubles and tinsel are reflecting against a window. The sun has nearly set on another day. I am watching junk TV – a bit of a stomach bug has caused diarrehea, nausea, anorexia, and dizziness, means I am laying a little low. A bit annoying when I’m back at work on Monday from my lovely Christmas break, but that’s life.
Most things heal, you adapt while that’s happening. As I get older, some things won’t be that easy and patience will need to be developed. Not always the easiest thing to do.
I’m taking it easy today but that doesn’t mean lying down. Just gentle activities and I’m looking forward to cooking tea tonight. Something simple, light and tasty. Not too much mess to clean up. It’s my turn to cook the Sunday roast tomorrow and I am looking forward to spending some time with my beloved on a skiing holiday in the near future – every time I think of that it makes me smile, although it’s always a little scary. I am nervous about injuring myself.
Going off topic, again! Is the juice worth the squeeze, please?
Yeah, it really is. The day to day is hard, but having a small bug actually makes me realise just how healthy I am, day to day, so to speak…
Posted: January 5th, 2025 under 42, Diabetes.