Control is an illusion
Given my last couple of posts, it was with some dismay I approach my half yearly review.
Yet, my Hb1Ac (that’s glycated haemoglobin to the uninitiated or how much glucose has stuck to a protein in my red blood cells) came back as 6% (or 42 mmol/mol) which is a stunning result given what’s been going on.
Analysts have worked out that’s an average of 7mmol/l (126mg/dl) over a three month period. Which bring Disraelli to mind and his phrase: lies, damned lies, and statistics. Because I have not had a constant blood glucose of 7mmol/l, especially the past 6 weeks. Life has not been plain sailing in terms of my diabetes, it has been extremely stressful and a feeling defeat over constant hard decisions, fasting and shear battles.
Ellen Langer spoke about the Illusion of Control when speaking about compulsive gamblers and for me, given the image from my last post, it seems especially so for type 1 diabetics.
We can set everything up and it can work exceptionally for a few days but it is a truly chaotic system: a small change can have a big impact on out levels and requirements.
This is what makes us disabled not unabled. If we have enough insulin and equipment, we can deal with this and lead near usual lives, but it is not the same as not being diabetic.